Prior to finding out I was pregnant with my 3rd kiddo five years ago, I was in a great place… physically, mentally, and spiritually.
I was waking up bright and early…
Getting in my workouts.
Being extremely mindful of what I was putting into my body, and making sure that it mostly had me feeling energetic, productive, happy, patient, and strong.
I was a happy and present mama to my two young kiddos.
I was soaking up all the personal development and yes, for me, that includes God time.
Guys… I was even meditating.
I mean, sheesh!
I was in “the zone”… and it felt really good.
After seeing that positive pregnancy test…
I had two thoughts…
One, I was overjoyed.
We tried with the hopes it would happen quick if it were meant to be, and wa-lah…. within the first month…
BABY!
The second thought that followed…
“Well, there goes all that work!”
If you’re like me, getting to a place where “healthy” becomes a habit isn’t easy.
It doesn’t come natural.
It take’s time, effort, and insane amounts of *discipline*.
Since having L, I’ve struggled greatly at finding “that place” again.
Sure, I could blame it on having three young kids, always being on-the-go, COVID, the fact that I was over “diets” and scales and went “intuitive” for a solid year, moving states last year… adjusting to all the change… our 10-year anniversary cruise, or a scary family moment that flipped my world…
But the truth is, after having all three of my kiddos, I never got back to that committed, dedicated, truly determined no matter what version of myself.
Sure, for a time or two here and there, but there was always a deadline.
An endpoint.
I do best with A PLAN…
An ONGOING plan.
I THRIVE in routine and structure.
I love being educated in health and wellness…
And I am passionate about being a product of what I preach.
This is why, Friends…
I have deemed 2023 my year of discipline!
This is my year of getting back to self-control…
Of saying no to things I MAY WANT in the moment…
KNOWING I’ll be better for having turned em down.
This year is about staying true to the state of mind I’m in as I write this blog post, even though I know, come a future moment, my mood will be screaming a different tune.
The hubs and I are starting out the year with a DRY & KETO January.
Alcohol, although lovely at times, is never necessary…
And my body without a doubt responds well to the KETO & Low Carb lifestyle.
Sure, there will be times this all SUCKS.
No doubt.
But just like strength-training a muscle…
Every time I prioritize sleep over a late night…
Every time I get my booty into that workout space…
Every time I turn something down in the name of health and wellness…
I’m strengthening that discipline muscle…
And am that much stronger for it.
No, this doesn’t mean I’m never indulging again…
But it does mean I will be mindful when I do.
It means that I’ll be searching for, and eventually relishing in, the joys in things that involve more than booze, food, and delicious treats.
Because Friends… they’re out there!
I am SO ready to get back to THAT version of me…
And I’m ready to do what it takes!
I hope and pray you all are able to get a little closer to your true selves in 2023.
Life is way too short and unpredictable to wait any longer.
Wishing you all a happy and healthy 2023!
Stay tuned!
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