Ever since I can remember, writing has been my thing.
I remember writing books as a little kid, and reading them to my mom… asking her…
“Do you think I could really publish this?”
Needless to say, I’ve wanted to be a *published* author for a long time.
Last week, after finishing the incredible book known as, “You Are a Badass” by Jen Sincero, I was reminded that we all have something to give, that God is good, and that the universe will work in your favor if your vibes and go-getter-tude are in the right place!
A huge reason I’ve hesitated in the writing of this particular book, is because my “specialty” by degree is in teaching. I feel confident in writing a book about kids and education because my degrees tell me… I’m an educator!
Although my *confidence* lacks in the health department, my *passion* is strong.
Last week, I decided I was going to finally do it. I was going to write my first book.
I did some serious praying to The Big Guy, and then…
I binged on junk for three days; almost as though I was attempting to convince myself:
I am not qualified to write a book on health.
I went back to prayer – in hopes He would *ninja* my doubts, worries, fears, and what-ifs, and the following morning as I was making breakfast; it was almost as if the holy spirit himself walked me to my Chromebook – hand on my back, sat me down, and said:
“You’ve got this!”
The craziest part, is that after literally *YEARS* of doubting my abilities in writing on this topic, in that moment, I had never been more sure of anything.
HECK YES!!!!! This is it. I’m finally going to do this. It’s happening.
There were no doubts in my mind, and I felt like a rockstar.
The next morning, after I had written quite a bit and shared about this endeavor on social media, the anxiety started setting in…
What am I doing?
Who am *I* to write a book?
Who is going to even read this?
I’m not a nutritionist?
There are SO many books on health. How is MINE going to be any different?
I just spent the past three days binging! Who is going to trust me?
I took a big, deep breath… and felt flooded with calm; realizing I don’t HAVE to have it all figured out, and to be honest… I want my readers to also believe THEY don’t have to have it all figured out. How *intimidating* this journey becomes when you think you do!
The most exciting and refreshing part of my book that I truly believe in my gut makes it unique… is the fact that it’s authentic, and I’m writing this in *real time*.
So many books I’ve read in the name of health include nutrition facts, food-inducing diseases, special diets, or individuals who have truly conquered their issues. And Friends, THAT.IS.AMAZING. But, how often do you read books from individuals who are in the midst of dealing? I’m sure they’re out there, but that’s just not what people tend to gravitate towards.
This book won’t be about the moment I stopped eating sugar, gave up alcohol, or never ate large portions again (although originally… that was my goal… and that’s why it’s taken me years to get going)!
This book is about connecting with and encouraging those who also struggle with their relationship with food and the diet world. It’s about my own personal journey; my struggles, my triumphs, my realizations, my ah-has… PRACTICAL ADVICE AND EXPERIENCE that has helped me come SUCH a long way over the past 25 years in my tango with food and a negative body image.
I’m psyched to be an open book and share my journey with whoever needs and wants to hear it. I want to help remind the world that *we truly can* find a common ground with our inner struggles, *we can* find a balance that is life-giving and joyful, and *we can* and should accept ourselves as we are.
I have no idea how long this book will take.
I have no idea what it will look like when it’s done.
I have no idea who will edit it.
I have no idea where to even START in the publishing department.
BUT… I know I’m writing this, and I know it’s what I’m meant to do.