In The Name of *Presence*

Hey There, Pacifying Chaos Readers!

Happy New Year!

How is everyone doing? How is everyone feeling? We’re more than three weeks into 2021, and this is typically the “make it or break it” point of those newly created resolutions.

Does anyone make resolutions?

If so, what were they, and how are you feeling about em?

I think this is the first year since I was 14 that I didn’t have a resolution including “losing weight”, and this caused me to reflect on just how amazingly far I’ve come, health wise.

THIS is my year of *presence*.

March-August of 2020, I escaped the moment at hand, more times than I’d like to admit, with *consumption*.

August-November of 2020, I *focused* my energies on getting healthier through purposeful movement and the Ketogenic Diet.

The final two months of 2020, I found myself REALLY focusing on “what’s next” or “what’s to come”. Although I had physically become healthier, I was finding myself preoccupied with making the holiday season AMAZING, *especially* during 2020, and again… in making THAT my focus, I wasn’t truly present in the season, and yes… *consumption* as a coping mechanism returned.

Thankfully, instead of MONTHS going by, I was able to recognize these behaviors within a few weeks, and I reflected on what I truly wanted out of not just January, but the entire year and even more importantly… this time in my life.

On Christmas evening, I couldn’t help but reflect on how fast these times are going! I cannot believe my kids are 7, 5, and 2.5 when it feels like JUST.YESTERDAY, I was thrilled to be pregnant for the first time!

All the fun and excitement my kids feel for the season are amazing and beautiful, but are limited. And yes… OF COURSE I hope and pray they’ll always love the season for many reasons, but the cookies and the milk and the giggles and the pitter patter of feet as they run to tell you, “HE CAME!!!”…

THOSE moments don’t last forever, and they’re so very precious.

Thankfully, the holiday season isn’t the only time we can enjoy these days with our young and easily excitable kiddos, and I’ve realized, I truly want to *be there* with them.

Yesterday, I finished the most incredible audio book I’ve ever listened to, The Art of Living by Thich Nhat Hanh.

I have encouraged, and basically told everyone I know, to listen to this book ASAP.

First of all – the reader has the most soothing and meditative voice, second of all – it’s only a 5-hour listen, and third of all – I have a great feeling many of your perceptions, views, and thoughts will be altered for the better.

Thich Nhat Hanh has reminded me that even though yes, having three young kiddos is a lot of work, I can still be filled with peace and happiness… every single day… every single moment of the day… with *slowing down*, and *changing my perspectives*.

As someone who is always rushing from one thing to the next, scheduling my day by the minute, planning and prepping for all things, people-pleasing, fearing and worrying about things truly out of my control; I feel as though I’ve been enlightened.

Yes, there are many tasks I’ll still have to do because they have to be done, but the *attitude* behind them has changed.

Tell me… who here would love to be more present? Who feels they do a good job of being present? Either way, I’d love to hear your tips, tricks, and realizations of *being* in the moment.

I wish you all a beautiful weekend! ❤️

Published by MamaVJr

My identity shifted from "teacher" to "mom" 7 years ago, and although my current day-to-day duties include all things stay-at-home mom, I *aspire* to become a Health and Life Coach! I love my family, coffee, nature, chocolate, food, God, music, photography, connecting with and relating to people, and writing.

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